I should update more huh?

Sorry for the delay, but the big plan of crushing faces has been slow starting because I haven’t really had money to play with lately. Too many bills and too little money coming from the real job that I’ve had to cashout all the rakeback funds I get for the most part.

I did take 200 yesterday and decide to have a run at some .50/1 NL and see what I could do. It’s a day later now and it’s gone, but not for a lack of trying. Every time I got on a little run I would take a suckout or a cooler and get pushed way back. Then I started working from almost nothing, built it back up to the original 200, and then did it AGAIN, then ran QQ into KK preflop for a nice chunk before finally missing a flush draw while I was relatively shortstacked to finally put me out of my misery.

The most frustrating thing is that I avoided the monkey tilt that has been my downfall in the past, I actually took a rough beat, came back from like 40 bucks to like 195 last night. Then started today, won a little, maybe up to 220 or so, then took another beat and was back down at 100. Then got that back to 195 again, and considered stopping, but figured I’ll try to hit 200, then I’ll possibly cashout or reevaluate. Well I never made it because of a fun little trips over turned boat hand. Then battled back a little bit yet again only to get ground down a bit and finally put it on a flush draw that missed.

As I was saying, it’s frustrating to battle like that and not be able to ever get a run going. Every time I started to get a little run, I would take a beat. I guess I feel good about my play though, especially last night having gone from being up almost 100, to down to 40 total and then back to even. It felt good to know that I was playing well mentally, which has always been my downfall.

I guess this just shows that playing out of your bankroll is extremely difficult unless you’re super lucky, but you would think one of these days I might hit that string of luck.

I do struggle with whether I should stick to tourneys or cash games or mix it up the way I usually do. Because my tourney game has been pretty solid lately. In cash games I find myself making a few more mistakes, but not enough that I should be losing. So maybe the problem really is the BR situation. It’s the only real problem I can see. I’ve played bad enough times to recognize when i’m playing bad now, so I feel like i’m at a point where I can be pretty honest with myself about my play.

The thought of getting staked has gone through my mind recently, but I think I’ll save that for another blog, since this one is pretty long as is. I hope to get that one up soon.