New Year, and time to get my shit together! I’ve been playing this game too long to still be broke at it. Granted, I’m probably up lifetime, but I have no bankroll. Doesn’t make much sense does it? I may be up, but I should be up to the point where working doesn’t come into the equation and my bank account doesn’t constantly need stupid little cashouts to pay bills.

You know why it should be that way? Because I’m actually good enough for it to be. I know how to play the game damn good. The problem is in my head. It’s tilt, bankroll management, tilt, game selection, tilt, boredom and tilt.

When I go into the strat forums at FCP and watch these guys break these hands down, I know for a fact that either I don’t play perfect, or I just play different, half the time it makes me realize that sometimes I make flat out retarded plays. You know why though? Probably because i’m on a minor tilt that slowly bleeds me to death without me even noticing it.

So for this new year, I need to get it together. Bankroll management might be a little problem for awhile, as I don’t have much to start with as usual, but I have to fix the rest and the BR will take care of itself hopefully.

Less Gen Pop at the forum, and more Strat. That needs to be the start. Next I need to play my best or not play at all. I don’t know how to do it exactly, but I need to stop letting one or two hands bother me, and the same with one or two tournaments. Maybe it’s because I don’t play as much as everyone else, so I take that one tournament or one session to heart much more. I need to stop that and just bring my A game, because I know my A game is damn good.

So there’s my resolution this year. I’m not setting a specific goal, no special amount, or playing in the wsop or anything like that, though all these things would be great, but why bother trying for that when I can’t steadily build to get there? Sure I can play good and build some money, and run good when I’m on tilt, but that’s just not likely, and it’s not going to keep this going in the long term. So it’s time to get control of my game and start being the player I see from time to time….. and being that player all the time!